:sigh:

The assignment of guardianship in case if death is not a decision to make hastily, and the fact we've gone this long without discussing it did not sit well with me. Everyday you hear about people dying, and heaven forbid… I shudder to think about what could happen if we don't make a decision and make it legal.

I don't have many, if any, friends, but DH does. One couple in particular came to mind, but when I asked him, he suggested my MIL. I can understand his reasoning (he trusts her, she's healthy enough, and she would love to have her), but I also cannot forget the things he's said about her (and experiences I've had with her) over the years either.

My heart breaks at the idea of her having to live without her parents, but it breaks even further when I think about her having to go through things DH experienced. Furthermore, I wouldn't want her to live without a positive father figure which is specifically why I was hoping for a couple…

I am praying for God's guidance and wisdom in making this decision and also for a hedge of protection for our family.

On an equally depressing note, there is further proof of how crappy a mother I am. I came home from work today to find DH working on DD's Baby Book. I was planning on getting to it, but as usual, I failed. Now he will be documenting all her milestones. Sometimes I wonder why God keeps me around. I'm utterly useless around here…