… "Hmm…" The Mr. posted this picture yesterday. Ironically, I'd been mentally having a similar conversation with myself about this about 30 minutes before he posted this. What makes this even more interesting is he hasn't spoken to me since Monday, yet, we're still on the same wavelength, well, aside from the whole not speaking thing.
I've been a SAHM for almost a year now and have long used up my part of what I like to call the unspoken "Yours/Mine/Ours" financial arrangement. On top of that, The Mr. just paid off a 13 year debt of mine, which (ironically) happens to be how long we've been "together," so I feel even worse. Subsequently, I have been cutting down on my running expenses, including supplements, training, and :gasp: races, not because he asked me to, but because I feel guilty, NO, unworthy.
The conversation I was having with myself was about a lot of things, but more pressingly, as the date is not registering for NeverQuit6 for the first time since NeverQuit2. I really don't want to miss this race, but I don't know if I can justify the expense to The Mr. I've heard that it's easier to ask forgiveness than permission, but that conflicts with my character. Besides, I would not like it if he did that to me.
I've considered finding things I could do from home to generate funds to support my running habit, but I haven't seriously addressed it, because there are so many things around the house that need to be done. "You see, what had happened was..." I've been in between a few projects for almost a year now (coincidence? I think not), and I'm starting to feel like Brian from "Family Guy" with his novel. But, I digress.
So, here I sit, typing away, while he sleeps. What would you do?
… oh my! As if Tuesday's "back door" waiver release wasn't enough to get my obsessive juices flowing -- that's an odd way of putting it, huh? -- today, the runDisney site was updated with Princess Half Marathon and Glass Slipper Challenge corral assignments and half marathon, 10K and 5K course maps! It looks like the corrals go from A to P, and I will be in J. This should allow me enough time for a bathroom break and, hopefully, a couple pictures!
2014 is looking to be a busy year, at least that's how these first few months appear!
Since becoming a SAHM, I've been on a mission to do what makes me happy. It may sound selfish, but the way I see it is, if I'm not happy, then how can I spend positive quality time with DD?
Today was my first time running with the Mr. and it was great! We started off 2:1 to weed through all the walkers, but continued at 1:1 ~ 12 mile pace. After mile 2, he wanted to continue running without walk breaks, but I wouldn't. He ended up leaving me right before mile 3, but I finished just 7 seconds after him, so I'm pretty pleased. Oh! I also broke in my new Brooks (Glycerin 8) today! Since he was kind enough to run with me, I figured the least I could do would be to ride with him and the running peeps tomorrow. Pray for me . . .
Oh! Our first attempt failed. AF showed up nearly a week early, so I'm pretty confused. Guess I'll stick with monitoring my BT and not rely solely on the app. We'll see . . .
I woke up this morning to the sound of pouring rain and decided to throw in the towel on my 11 mile training run. Like I texted my running buddy, "Mama doesn't do rain!" To make matters worse, my left ankle has been killing me since I took Gus for a jog yesterday. I'm convinced I hurt it when I "almost died" running up the steps at work Thursday. I kicked the last step, hurt my big toe, and possibly rolled my ankle. I'd forgotten all about it until it started hurting yesterday.
Speaking of running, I convinced my darling husband to attend an event last night at JRC. I was surprised he agreed to go since things seemed to be strained between us yesterday (perhaps residual feelings from our failed NYE "kiss"). I kept expecting him to wander off or sit in the car (as he's done on more than a few occasions), but he stuck it out. He was, however, texting someone, but what else is new? Like I said yesterday, everything else is more important than where he is. :sigh:
On a more positive note, we had "the baby talk" this morning. I told him I had been entertaining the idea of conceiving by the end of the year, but also told him of my desire for a career change. Despite my argument that both can be done, he recommended I choose one or the other. The more practical idea would be to finish school first, but I'm more concerned about the possibility of a high-risk pregnancy due to my age. I already have a history of uterine fibroids and hypertension (which I pray will be under control before then); I really don't need anything else complicating matters. In the end, I need to decide what I want to do and do it quickly. "Tick, tick, tick. That's the sound of [my] life running out."
I'm usually not up this late, but since I slept most of the afternoon -- thanks to the rain -- I am wide awake. I should probably call it a night though, since I am opening tomorrow. Oh! I will also be taking my "Insanity" Fit Test tomorrow morning. Pray my ankle holds out. That is all.
Kay Dub is a 38 year old stay at home mother of 3 fur babies, a preschooler and a toddler. An avid runner, marathon mom, fitness buff and triathlete in training, her most challenging goal is becoming a Proverbs 31 woman and "Wife After God".