I skipped my traditional shirt/bib picture the night before (which typically gets me hyped up for a race), began the race (and ran about 7 miles) on a full bladder, ran without my hat (due to wind), had issues with my music as we hit the Main Street Bridge (and fought with it for a couple miles), AND was plagued by Braxton Hicks contractions (apparently triggered by the full bladder) during most of the race . . . how do YOU think I did?!
This was my worst time EVER on ANY race (except for maybe the 2011 Donna when I was injured), so I'm pretty bummed about it. I was blessed enough to have The Mr. with me, so he kept me motivated. He even pulled me across the finish line, when I just wanted to throw in the towel. It was his first GRR, so I feel badly for performing so poorly. Next year, we'll hire a sitter and make it count!
That is all.
As usual, I am having a hard time keeping up with this. It'd be nice to have some record of this pregnancy, but, alas, I can't even do that right. I started feeling definite movement a couple weeks ago. It's more pronounced when I wear my Gabrialla band. Speaking of which, I've found it to be quite helpful in reducing lower back pain!
We ran the Donna 1/2 without incident. It took longer than I'd like, but I was getting psyched out since I was running the latter half by myself. It didn't help that my right hip was bothering me from running on the uneven JTB surface. It was freezing, so I didn't really have to worry about overheating, but I could definitely feel the difference with this extra 20 lbs.
We had our anatomy scan yesterday (19w 3d). I was super anxious since I hadn't seen our little one in almost a month, and because I had some abnormal results from my 2nd Sequential. For the most part, the ultrasound ruled out the blood work concerns. Unfortunately, there is something amiss with the LO's brain. They also noticed excess amniotic fluid which could mean a number of things. At this point, they're taking the "wait and see" approach. We have to go back next month to see if anything has changed. Prayerfully, it will not progress.
I have been very depressed lately, and this news really does not help. I feel so alone in this pregnancy. It even seems as though the baby is not moving as much since yesterday. Even though things with The Mr. are amicable, he is still emotionally unavailable. I tearfully mentioned this to him last week, but nothing has changed. I'm just so sad.
We're supposed to run the Gate River Run together next Saturday, but I have been too bummed to workout. I will try to get back on track next week, but, I fear it's too little, too late. I don't have any races scheduled after this one, so I wanted to do it big and finish strong. He has really killed my joy, and that saddens me. He used to be my biggest supporter; now, he's just there. I'm sure he's unhappy too, and his unhappiness probably stems from my unhappiness. I know he is a major source of mine . . .
Kay Dub is a 38 year old stay at home mother of 3 fur babies, a preschooler and a toddler. An avid runner, marathon mom, fitness buff and triathlete in training, her most challenging goal is becoming a Proverbs 31 woman and "Wife After God".