… and say what you mean. I was checking out at Publix earlier and, after giving my typical "I'm doing well" response to the cashier, found myself wondering why people bother to ask if they don't REALLY care to know the truth? 🤔 I can only imagine how uncomfortable I would have made her if my reply had been, "Well, my mom died Wednesday, and I can't seem to write an obituary that encompasses everything she truly was," or "I'm still trying to figure out how I am supposed to act after having lost both of my parents in less than 3 months," or even a simple Marsellus Wallace "I'm pretty [explitive] far from okay." 😏
As I sit here watching you sleep, and wondering if each breath will be your last, I imagine you doing the same after my stay in the NICU. The times we've shared in the nearly four decades of my life have not been "all flowers and sausages," but they helped shape who I am today, and I would not change a thing. Thank you for being a patient and loving mother and for never making good on your promise to "take [me] out," although I know there were times when I may have deserved it.
Also, thank you for being a thoughtful grand-mére (MéMé) to my kids in spite of the hundreds of miles that separate us. I wish you could have spent more quality time together in your "better" days, but I will make sure they remember the moments you shared.
I hope you are proud of the woman I have become and the wife and mother I strive to be. Miss ya madly <3
". . . not for tomorrow."
- En Vogue
"This Is Your Life"
It's funny how the mind works. Sometimes, the most random, seemingly unrelated thoughts can trigger long-forgotten memories. This morning, I set out to find a quote similar to tomorrow is not promised, and this song that I haven't heard in about 20 years popped in my head. Who knew that the theme song from "Roc" would hijack my post?
Kay Dub is a 38 year old stay at home mother of 3 fur babies, a preschooler and a toddler. An avid runner, marathon mom, fitness buff and triathlete in training, her most challenging goal is becoming a Proverbs 31 woman and "Wife After God".