I am very anxious to see our little one again. It's been two weeks, and the baby had grown so much between the last two visits . . . I can only imagine the changes.
Unfortunately, this NYE was as much of a disappointment, if not more, than the last. The Mr. was distant all day. He went grocery shopping, then came home and was deveining shrimp. I tried to hug him and he shrugged me off, which, hormonal or not, sent me over the edge. I was crushed! I holed up in our room crying and organizing my side of the closet.
It turned out he was making the delicious Boom Boom Shrimp tacos we had at Ale House a couple days earlier. I was so moved, but he shrugged it off. He also purchased a delicious Hershey's Dark Chocolate Pie. I was in heaven. Then, he holed up in the home office on the computer for the rest of the night. He emerged around 11:30p, but went straight to bed. Again, I started crying. This was our last child-free NYE, and he didn't even want to ring in the new year with me?! I'm getting teary now just thinking about it. Am I that horrible?! Why did he even marry me?
I spent some time with the cats and dog before coming back in and asking if this is how he wanted to spend our last NYE together. He mumbled something about being tired, but he did come out a couple minutes before midnight. We held hands during the countdown, then back to bed he went.
I'm really concerned. I found a small bottle of rum stashed in the home office, and a large bottle of Jameson recently appeared behind the Keurig. Is life so miserable that he has to resort to drinking? He hardly ever initiates a conversation and never asks about my day or how I'm feeling, even after I've asked the same of him. I have so many things I want to discuss with him. This is supposed to be a happy time for us. Is he nervous about being a parent? I don't understand. We've been planning this for a while. What changed?
Kay Dub is a 38 year old stay at home mother of 3 fur babies, a preschooler and a toddler. An avid runner, marathon mom, fitness buff and triathlete in training, her most challenging goal is becoming a Proverbs 31 woman and "Wife After God".